Back from tour... Everyone is asking how it went. I have been giving short answers to most...
There where a lot of ups and downs this tour. I worked my ass of to get to this point, and the shows where no one came where obviously disappointing. There where a few people whom Parallax have done so much for in the past got us shows out of obligation only, half stepping all the way. It was hard for me to tour with people who don’t share the same lifestyle choices that I do, i felt alienated a lot of the time, but I am sure that I was a stress to them too. All and all the shows where awesome. And although DIY hardcore is small, it is existing. The tools that are commonly used to measure success don’t work with DIY ethic... and when you try and measure success with those tools you will feel like a failure. But that is one thing that I love about the DIY, if done right it transcends the main stream... having one person relate to what I am trying to express is enough... and often times on this tour many people would relate. We made some great contacts with some very inspiring people and bands etc. We fucking played Gilman! That enough was enough really, to play on the same stage that so many amazing bands have played on tingled my dingle. Still shit is hard. And some times it doesn’t feel worth it.
One thing that I love about tour is how you intimately get to share a day or so with so many different people, you stay with them over night, see how they live etc. I stayed in the straight up ghetto on rat infested floors one night, running wild in the streets of Oakland, and only a few days later staying at a million dollar estate on the bay in Seattle.
Now I am in a in between position. I am not too sure about much of anything in my life right now. I feel the extremes pulling me. I feel the desire to reel into a willful isolation, yet at the same time I crave intimate communication. I have no $ at all, and no job. There is still a lot for me to do to get the full length finished. I miss her. The future
is uncertain, and all I want to do is ride a train though the desert and forget it all.
High lights of tour:
Killin Vegas
Seeing Collin on how different our lives are.
Playing Gilman (the whole bay area is awesome!) Doug!
Playing a garage in Oakland with Acts of Sedition and having people actually know our songs.
Killing Oakland, I am officially thug.
Hanging out with Pat he is officially my twin brother, it is crazy. We are the same person!
Vegan Doughnuts
Vita Café in Portland
Rockin with Jansen and about 10 other dudes.
Playing in Tacoma, even though we played like shit.
Eating hand fulls of black berries before a show in Seattle (all of Seattle was awesome!)
Stay Gold.
Anarchist book store.
Gourmet vegan food with Tyson in Spokane.
Puking my guts out after the Logan show, with a handlebar moustache. | 
